Ah Gong passed away last friday, even though i'm not that close with him as i grew up, still couldnt hold my tears back as we send him off. Memories flow back when he talked to me during young, often speaking in hokkien, buy me toys when my mum wouldnt, carry me in his arms, just couldnt hold back the tears.

It's the first time i see my parents cry especially my dad and it really ache my heart seeing him cry as i can imagine the pain of losing his father. Seeing so many of my elders so upset is really a heart wrenching moment. Not just a saying but this make me cherish the loved ones more, we really wouldnt know when is the last day and really i wouldnt want to regret on that day. I hope Ah Gong is in a better place right now and everybody will feel better as time goes by.

Meeting the specialist in 2 wks time.

Had a rough year so far. Wish u were here by my side when i need u the most but seeing u living happier without me, perhaps i should just let it be. The dreams that i had, perhaps would never be fulfil.